Friday, January 04, 2008

If you thought...

I fell through a black hole, you wouldn't be completely wrong.

I wasn't in the Christmas spirit this year, it never came. The hanger has been having a tough time. I have been doing my best to help him. Things got worse and worse, just before Christmas, things pretty much hit bottom. You know when you jump in to save a drowning man, the danger is he can pull you under with him. I've made a tough call to save myself but it doesn't come without feelings of sadness and loss.

I got through Christmas this year. There was a tree, there were presents for my son. Fortunately, my X's family were in the Christmas spirit and what may have been missing at home, my son received in abundance when he spent Christmas Day with them. We were invited to a girl friend's for Christmas dinner and that was a tremendous help. To be able to be a part of her family celebration made it much easier.

My birthday passed almost completely without remark. I wasn't in the birthday spirit either. I took myself down to Make 1 and Michelle asked me if I wanted her to sing. I said "No", so she got the whole store to sing. Next time I will know that what I needed to say was "I will kill you if you do". Honestly, it actually did cheer me up a bit. The knitting bag I bought on sale and with a gift certificate from my sister cheered me up even more.

One thing that has been a constant is my knitting. A friend told what Edith Piaf said when asked about her knitting , "It keeps me off the cocaine and heroin." Well, I wouldn't go that far but it does keep me sane.

No pictures today. Soon I promise.

Lets all hope that 2008 is better than 2007.

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6 Comments:

Blogger The_Add_Knitter said...

Hi Marnie,
I'm sorry that you've been having a rough time of it--the holidays can really do a number on our spirits. I hope you pull out of the doldrums soon. Take special care!

9:44 PM  
Blogger Karen said...

This is such a tough time of year, and I'm sorry to hear it's been extra hard on you. I hope the knitting is helping ease your mind some. And I'll send happy, positive thoughts your way. Wishing you a wonderful 2008.

7:12 AM  
Blogger Jennifer said...

Thank goodness for children - I had a rough Christmas too and they really kept me going. I'm glad you went and bought yourself some knitting stuff - I just did the same yesterday :) Definitely lifts the spirits! Also, thanks for the Edith Piaf quote, I LOVE her and didn't realize she was also a knitter - more to love lol. Take care of yourself.

11:32 AM  
Blogger knittinggrammy said...

We all sang because we love you!!! See you soon one of these days LOL!

2:59 PM  
Blogger Gina said...

hey Marnie,
Christmas isn't my favourite either. I do it for the kids, but it's not my thing. I'm so sorry to hear that things have been a bit extra difficult recently for you. Please know that you are cared for by many, that you matter, and that blessings will continue to come to you. Holding you in my heart...

1:16 PM  
Blogger Olga said...

Love the quote too! Hang in there, when you get so low, everything is up from there!

8:40 AM  

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