Thursday, March 09, 2006

Letting the plants go wild…

The job thing is getting to me and I haven't even received my first EI cheque.

I did have kind of a nice thing happen the other day though. I ran in to a friend I hadn't seen for a long time and she asked me out for coffee. She kept looking at me and saying "You look so great, I'm so proud of you!"It's always nice to hear.

She asked if I was seeing anyone. I said not really. There is my friend "the hanger", the problem with him is he doesn't like kids, doesn't want them, doesn't have them, doesn't want to have them. I have a 12-year-old son, in the 2-1/2 years that I've been friends with him, "the hanger" has made sporadic efforts with my son but never really warmed to him. I don't see us ever being one big happy family so for 2-1/2 years now, I've been hanging out with a guy there's no real future with. At first it was great… someone I love spending time with who poses absolutely no threat to my independence, he has his life, I have mine, sometimes they cross over. Lately… I don't know. It isn't like I ever meet single men, married men yes, the guys who coach rugby and scouts, friend's husbands… I just don't run in single circles anymore. I made efforts to date for a while but oh the guys… too controlling, too fussbudgety, too stuck in their ways, too interfering. I keep ending up back at the hanger. Sometimes I think I'm just meant to be alone.

One of my favorite friends sent me a great quote "A woman without a Man is like a Garden without a Fence" may be she's got it right… Let the Plants grow Wild!

Anyway, I'm feeling out of sorts so mostly what I've been doing is knitting. Another shawl, this one to go over the back of the couch and wrap myself in when I'm reading or watching TV. I'm so in love with the yarn--Goldilocks by Fleece Artist that I'd like to get more to make gifts with. Knitting keeps me sane, it forces me to turn off my brain and sometimes, as Martha would say, "That's a Good thing."


Blogger Mary said...

That's cool yarn you're using for the shawl -- what's the fiber content?

9:01 PM  
Blogger Gingersnaps with Tea... said...

It's 56% kid mohair;24% Silk;20% Nylon and again comes in a broad variety of colour combinations. The web site is if you want to find out what locations it's available at.

9:10 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

Oooh, I like the all those fibers!

Yes, I'm quite excited about my upcoming sock lesson. I think we're going to be doing it cuff-down, so it'll be a long period of boring cuff knitting, and then the scary part when all the foot shaping starts to happen. I'll definitely post about it!

I like your blog. Best of luck with finding a job -- I'll bet you will shortly. I was unemployed for four months year-before-last, and I don't regret a minute of it -- I used that time to really get to know more about my profession, and it gave me the courage to go out on my own as a self-employed, independent consultant. Also, I, too, am 40-ish and single, although I've never been married nor had kids, (except two cats), so I know how it is out there -- it really IS hard to meet interesting men who aren't married, and I have no interest in being an Brangelina homewrecker!

8:30 AM  
Blogger The_Add_Knitter said...

Wow gorgeous shawl! I agree that knitting is valuable as a zone-out activity--somtimes my best resolutions to problems come to me when I'm knitting. Love your blog!

6:12 AM  

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